Pride and Patience...

The other day I was going to the boys school to do a reading group with my 5 yr. old's class. Parking is at a minimum at their school...so when i got to the school, I found that there was no parking close by. I had to park down the road and walk (the 1/2 block) to the school. Silly as it is, I was upset. For some reason I think that I deserve that close parking spot. This is kind of a reflection of how I've been feeling as a mom lately. I work hard, I try to do the best I can. I feed my kids healthy food, I discipline them very consistently, we read together, we discuss life, and I try to apologize when I mess up. So, the other day when the principal called and told me that my son was going to be suspended from school, for a day, I almost fell apart. He kicked his teacher:(. I don't know why, but it is always personal. That night when I was laying in bed I was thinking about my little man's day, and I was so sad, and honestly, a little embarrassed. That was when I had my epiphany: this isn't all about me(duh). There is a little boy who is acting out for a reason. Without making any excuses, the Sniff boys have come a LONG way in 5 years. While I was laying there I also realized that I thought that one day I would wake up and everything would be perfect. While I realize that perfection is unattainable, sometimes I still try. This journey of mothering is a long one, and if I make it about myself and my expectations it is not going to go well! Through my pride, God is pursuing me. He asks me to do my best for Him and He is helping me grow my patience in the midst of a not-so-good situation. God doesn't always take me where I think I am going to go on my journey, but He ALWAYS brings me closer to Him(if I let Him). Through this, I have been able to have some candid talks with the principal and teacher and my little man is already doing better at school. One day at a time, that is my new mantra. By the way, I even ended up enjoying my short walk in to the school the other day...the fresh air was nice!