Today sure has had its ups and downs...I'm searching for words to come and they aren't. I know that God is in control...I know that I can hold on to His promises, but sometimes I just don't know how to do that in the day to day.
My aunt has been given a diagnosis that is changing her life, and her faith, peace, and strength are blowing me away!! I truly believe in miracles and I know that I am not giving up on faith in the perfect healer until I see her healing! I am learning to trust day by day. Almost every night at bedtime I say a simple prayer with my family that we will learn to love God more everyday. Sometimes I am so arrogant that I think that praying that prayer means that b/c everything is going to go my way...I can love God more. Last night, when I was driving home from a wonderful prayer meeting over my aunt, I had an amazing time of surrender. I realized these are the times that we truly learn to love God more every day. He created us. He loves us. He sees the bigger picture. We are in the midst of a process that is drawing us to Him. Thank goodness He can see the bigger picture. I have to keep going so that I can go to the place where my dreams really come true.
In school, the boys both have behavior charts that help the teachers keep their classes under control. Last week D came home with the words "Needs Improvement" circled on his paper that described his behavior that day, and KJ had lost 2 out of 3 "pennies" for the day. Then today KJ came out of school and said, "I had a great day Mom!" And D ran out and hollered, "Mom, She circled "Excellent", I had and excellent day!! "
So, today my life lesson through my kids (and what I am holding on to for my Aunt) is...Some days we all just "need improvement"...and with some serious help from our Great Provider...there are days when he tells us we are Excellent! I'm holding out for excellent, Aunt Mary!!
