One of those days...

Today sure has had its ups and downs...I'm searching for words to come and they aren't. I know that God is in control...I know that I can hold on to His promises, but sometimes I just don't know how to do that in the day to day.
My aunt has been given a diagnosis that is changing her life, and her faith, peace, and strength are blowing me away!! I truly believe in miracles and I know that I am not giving up on faith in the perfect healer until I see her healing! I am learning to trust day by day. Almost every night at bedtime I say a simple prayer with my family that we will learn to love God more everyday. Sometimes I am so arrogant that I think that praying that prayer means that b/c everything is going to go my way...I can love God more. Last night, when I was driving home from a wonderful prayer meeting over my aunt, I had an amazing time of surrender. I realized these are the times that we truly learn to love God more every day. He created us. He loves us. He sees the bigger picture. We are in the midst of a process that is drawing us to Him. Thank goodness He can see the bigger picture. I have to keep going so that I can go to the place where my dreams really come true.
In school, the boys both have behavior charts that help the teachers keep their classes under control. Last week D came home with the words "Needs Improvement" circled on his paper that described his behavior that day, and KJ had lost 2 out of 3 "pennies" for the day. Then today KJ came out of school and said, "I had a great day Mom!" And D ran out and hollered, "Mom, She circled "Excellent", I had and excellent day!! "
So, today my life lesson through my kids (and what I am holding on to for my Aunt) is...Some days we all just "need improvement"...and with some serious help from our Great Provider...there are days when he tells us we are Excellent! I'm holding out for excellent, Aunt Mary!!

My profound son...

So, today we were riding in the car and Damion said, "Mom, if God came down to earth and played hide and seek with me, do you think I could find Him?" and then he followed that up with, "Well, yes, because He is so big that I would have to see Him."
I love it! I love how he is thinking about God in such real terms to him. My kids LOVE playing hide and seek. They run around like crazy boys trying to hide, but trying to be found. They love trying to find me and won't stop until they do. Damion is on to something! I forgot that God is so big that I can find Him anywhere. I forgot that when I am hiding, He is seeking me! I forgot that I love being found! I remembered today that God is right here wanting to meet me right where I am, and it took my 6 year old to remind me just how amazing that is!

It's been a year and a half and I think I am ready to be a blogger:)

Thanks to my dear friend Ashley, I have been reminded that I started a blog and haven't done anything with it! So, I think I am going to try again to be a blogger.
As I sit here, I love thinking about the possibilities of all the things that lie ahead of me. D and I had a pretty big confrontation about him manipulating our neighbor girl to get info on movies he's not allowed to watch. He's a smart little 6 year old and it is really hard to stay one step ahead of him. As a mom, I want so many things for my children...but the biggest thing is wanting them to become who they were created to be. I have so many dreams for them! However, its not about my dreams for them that are the most important. It's the dreams of the One who created them that I need to remind myself of on a daily basis!
I love being a mom to these crazy boys and learning about God in and through them!
I think I am going to like this blogging thing...even if it is nothing more than a place to work through whatever my kids and I are facing at the moment.